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  “Don’t cry Jace, I would love to be your personal teddy bear and keep the nightmares away. Everyone needs a teddy at least once in their life and I’ll be yours. You can sleep next to me as long as you want, I’ll always be here for you. Kind of like that girlfriend I told you about, the one at home waiting for you? Yeah well I’ll be that chick... but without the sex. Whenever you want a cuddle or to sleep…I'll be waiting for you and only you Jacey.” I say as I wipe away the tears he’s clearly trying to hide from me, I give both of his cheeks a kiss then I pull him so that his head leans against my chest, I wrap my arms around his big body and run my hand through his damp silky long hair rest my hand over the heavy arm resting over my stomach..

  He wraps his arm tighter around me as I hear him let out a shaky breath., “Thank you for being my teddy babe. You’re already my girl, you just don’t know it yet but if you call me Jacey around the boys I will tickle you till you pee yourself and that goes for telling anyone I cried too. You’re too perfect for someone like me.” he mumbles.

  “All your secrets are safe with me ...you are better than you think you are.” I whisper as I continue to run my hands through his hair.

  "Baby if you knew the things I have done, you wouldn’t think so. I’m a terrible person…” he says as he holds onto me tighter and snuggles into the crook of my neck with his forehead now leaning against my jawline. I kiss his forehead.

  “Stop saying that. Go to sleep its late, we can chat in the morning.” I say softly and a few minutes later I already hear his deep breathing as his chest pushes against the side of my body. I smile to myself knowing he’s sleeping peacefully and I’m the reason for it.

  CHAPTER 10

  I wake up with Jace’s heavy legs wrapped over mine and I can feel his morning arousal pressed firmly against my ass and it’s not small either. I also feel his large hand that he left on my stomach last night is now resting at the curve of my breast with his thumb nestled between my two breasts. Tingles course through me as he continues to hold me firmly against his body. I try wiggling away in an attempt to get him to shift but instead he pushes his body into mine and moans into my ear.

  “Jace, wake up.” I say softly.

  “Mmmhmm…” he moans again.

  “Jace…you…you’re kinda…poking me...” I stutter.

  He chuckles, “Yeah…I kinda am…” he says through his throaty morning voice then he brings his hand higher on my breast still not reaching my nipple. I let out a squeal as he squeezes gently and I flinch under his touch, I grab his hand to move it away but he won’t budge.

  “Teddy, remember what I said about getting what I want? I want to touch you and I’m going to. You feel too damn good not too. Your skin is so soft…” He purrs into my ear.

  “Oh… is that my new nickname? Teddy? Aren’t you original….Jacey. I honestly don’t care how much you want to “touch me” right now, I’m nauseas and need the bathroom, so unless you want me to chunder on you….move!” I yell at him.

  “Oh shit! Sorry Harley.” He yells as I run out the bedroom and toward the bathroom.

  I’ve been leaning over the toilet for about twenty minutes when Jace saunters in. I have no more food to throw up, my throat is raw and I have tears coming from my eyes as I’m once again reminded of the little person growing in me and the person who helped put me in this predicament.

  Jace kneels behind me and takes the hair from my hand. He uses his other hand to rub my back gently like he’s done before, I know he’s trying to help and it makes me cry harder over the toilet. Eventually the nausea subsides and he helps me up so I can brush my teeth. I wash my face and wipe it down with a towel. He leads me to his room and tucks me back in bed, he climbs in the other side of me wrapping his arms around me as he sits holding me.

  “You okay baby?” he asks sweetly.

  “No Jace I’m not okay, how am I going to do this?” I say as I let out deep breath trying to calm myself from the panic attack I’m about to have.

  “Baby I told you already, you have us, if you need anything just let us know and we will be there for you. You are part of this family whether you like it or not. You will never be alone my Harlz, I’ll be here whenever you need me…sex included in that offer, just say the word.” Jace teases and winks. I scoff and smack his chest playfully.

  “I suppose I can deal with you being touchy feely if you keep saying sweet things like that to me” I kiss his cheek.

  While I’m sitting on the sofa in the lounge a few hours later, Anna strolls in.

  “Morning babes! How are you feeling?” She asks as she sits down next to me on the couch with a cup of coffee.

  “I’m all good and you?” I say smiling at her.

  “I’m great, wanted to ask you if you’d like to go shopping with me today, get stuff for your room?” Anna says.

  “Just us?” I ask excitedly, I never got to have shopping days with my mother like all the other girls did.

  “Yip.”

  “Of course! That sounds fun. Will it be okay if we stop at the college? I want to speak to the student counselor though, I need to find out if they’ll be able to change my enrollment from full time to correspondence. I just think it’ll be easier with the pregnancy and at least I can work as much as possible to pay for all the baby stuff.” I explain.

  “Harley you know we are going to help you financially? Your father wouldn’t have it any other way… and you know how he is when he’s determined? This whole correspondence thing? Is it really because you are pregnant or is it because you don’t want to run into a certain someone when college starts?” she asks me raising her eyebrow.

  I sigh knowing she caught me out, “Okay…I guess it’s a little of both, the thing is I’m just not ready to see them together. I can only take so much. I won’t be able to take seeing them all lovey dovey in their new relationship while I have to deal with what he left me when he threw our relationship down the drain. I know how my dad is when it comes to me but I need to pay my way, especially with the baby, I want to be the one to provide for him or her.” I tell her sternly, she nods her head in acceptance.

  “Speaking of the baby, is it okay if I make you an appointment with a doctor around here? I think it’s best we introduced you to a Doctor in this area, you may even find out the sex of the baby during your next consult.” she says enthusiastically.

  “I can’t wait. Thanks so much” I squeal excitedly giving her a hug.

  On the way to the college my nerves start to kick in as I think about running into either Ashley or Caleb while I’m there. I know everyone is still on break so hopefully they haven’t moved up yet.

  “Don’t be nervous babes, I’ll be here with you the whole time and if I see either of those two dipshits I will deal with them. Don’t stress.” She pats my hand soothing my nerves.

  After speaking with the counselor, she gave me a variety of options. The management degree I wanted to take offers a correspondence course as well as night time classes three times a week due to it being popular amongst people that already work full time. I would only have to attend the night classes three times a week for a two hour session.

  Anna said I could work the evenings that I don’t have college, my schedule works out perfectly and it feels it like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

  I spent the rest of the day shopping with Anna, she was determined to spoil me and bought me an entirely new wardrobe. She bought clothes that I would be able to wear to work; most of what she picked out was the type of suggestive clothes that she usually wears and even though it’s not my taste, I’ll wear it if it makes her happy. I pray my father doesn’t have a heart attack when I dress for work tonight. The clothes were sexy; Anna said that I should enjoy my body while I can and since the baby bump isn’t all that evident under loose clothes I decided to take her advice.

  It’s time for a change….

  All the furniture for my room will be delivered tomorrow morning and I can’t wait to finally have my own
space. We arrive home an hour before the bar is about to open so I quickly get ready for work. I decide to wear a black loose, off the shoulder top, it hides the baby bump perfectly. I pair it with denim shorts, it not too short but I still feel naked with my bare legs sticking out. I look through my duffle bag and reach for the black mid-thigh socks. Looking myself over in Anna’s long mirror, I already feel more confident in what I’m wearing. I pick out a comfortable pair of heeled ankle boots to finish the outfit off.

  Whilst doing my hair in Anna’s bathroom, she knocks on the door.

  “Come in.” I shout as I switch off the blow dryer and place it in the draw.

  “Wow babes you look hot. Your father is going to kill me!” she says laughing.

  I look her over, she has a tight black shirt on with her cleavage sticking out paired with short red hot pants and a pair of plain black heels. All her ink is on show. “You like?” she says twirling for me.

  “Wow, dads gonna have a fit!” I laugh with her.

  “Here, let me do your makeup and hair.” She says gesturing for me to take a seat on the tall stool.

  She straightens my hair and it falls down my back flawlessly then she takes the front piece where my long fringe is and braids it down the side of my head so that no hair falls in my face. She does a dark smokey eye with red lipstick. I don’t even recognize myself in the mirror, I look much older than my eighteen years and I love it.

  She hands me a short bar apron that has the clubs bar logo on it, I wrap it around my waist and stick the notepad in. We head to the bar and I notice the entire house is unusually quiet with no one hanging around.

  “Where is everybody?” I ask her as I start wiping down tables.

  “The boys had business with another club, they should be here later tonight but Mondays are usually a slow night so it’s just you, me and Jesse out here tonight with Toby manning the kitchen.” Anna says as she packs the bar with clean glasses.

  “Jesse? Dad actually allows you to work with another guy?” I ask her confused, I know how possessive and jealous my father can be.

  “Honey, the only reason your father lets Jesse work with me is because he’s gay. Well I got a feeling he’s bi but I won’t tell your father that, he thinks that Jesse flirts with the girls at the bar for better tips." she chuckles and I laugh with her.

  She shows me how the bar and cash register works, when she shows me how to work the beer taps I ask her, “I can’t hand out alcohol? I’m too young, what if someone catches me serving alcohol.”

  “Harley calm down, no one comes around here asking questions and when you dress up like that you look much older than your real age, besides I had this made for you…” she says digging in her back pocket, handing me a fake ID that says I’m twenty two.

  I look at her in shock, “You are the coolest mom ever!” I giggle looking over at my fake ID.

  She heads my way and hugs me, “I am, aren’t I?” she says smiling. “Besides it’s not as if you can drink anyways?” she says looking down at my belly.

  “Does Dad know about this?” I ask her tapping the ID.

  “Of course…he got it made after I suggested it.” she says flatly like it’s just another thing parents do for their kids.

  She continues to show me how to work everything and I catch on pretty quickly. I head to the back storeroom to fetch more glasses for the bar. I use my ass to push open the swing doors but as I push against the doors they open and I stumble.

  “Whoa there tiny! Let me help you with that.” I turn to look at who’s the owner of the deep masculine voice to see a tall beautiful man…must be Jesse. He’s wearing a tight black shirt that has the bar’s logo on and straight cut jeans. The muscles in his broad chest can be clearly seen through the material, he’s not as stocky as Jace and he has more of a lean body but nevertheless he has muscles in all the right places.

  He has beautiful green eyes similar to Caleb’s but lighter. He has brown curly hair and is definitely a “pretty boy”, Jesse reminds me a lot of Caleb and the clean cut good looking boy he was. I quickly shut all thoughts of Caleb down and look back up at Jesse who’s smiling at me now, he must have caught me staring. I hand him the glass trays and walk past him with my head down trying to hide my rosy cheeks, I hold the door open for him to walk through.

  He chuckles as he passes by and I follow him into the bar, I notice Anna has opened the bar and a couple of people are already seated by the bar and a few of the tables.

  “So aren’t you going to introduce me to the new girl?” Jesse says completely ignoring me speaking to Anna as she pours drinks and places them on a tray for him.

  “Jesse, this is my daughter Harley.” Anna says proudly, I can tell she loves calling me her daughter and it makes me happy, I watch as his eyes widen with realization.

  “You’re Harley? Thee Harley?” he says pointing to the pink Harley model mounted on the wall holding my name.

  “Yes, I’m thee Harley.” I say mimicking his awe filled expression.

  “Wow, so good to finally meet you babe. I’m Jesse and it looks like your daddy is going to be using that baseball bat tonight.” He says pointing to the bat mounted under the bar.

  “Fuck, going to have a hard time keeping these horny college boys away from you. “ Jesse says as he takes the tray from Anna and walks away.

  The night has been going smoothly so far and I’ve already caught the hang of things, a few guys also flirted with me and luckily all of them have kept their hands to themselves. I’ve noticed both Jesse and Anna have been keeping a protective eye on me and apart from all the flirting that’s been coming my way from drunk college guys ,I’ve been having a great night so far.

  “Harley?” I jump at the sound of Jace’s voice in my ear, I turn to see him checking me out with wide eyes.

  “Hey! Haven’t seen you all day.” I wait for him to respond but he continues to stare from my toes to my eyes, looking at me as if he’s filled with surprise.

  “Jace! Stop that…” I playfully push his arm and he chuckles and puts his heavy arm over my shoulder protectively.

  “You boys all finished with that meeting?” I ask him removing myself from his arm before walking back to the bar with empty glasses. He follows me making sure to keep his eyes on me.

  “What are you wearing? Annalie did this to you right?” he ignores my questions and walks up to me, takes the tray from my hands, places it on the bar nearby then corners me up against the wall with both of his hands on either side of my head.

  “W…what are you doing? What’s wrong with the way I’m dressed? Is it too skanky?” I say tugging my shorts lower as my lack of confidence rises.

  “No baby you look sexy as fuck, any of these guys given you trouble or tried anything with you?” he says looking me over and biting his lip making me tremble beneath his lust filled stare. He knows what he’s doing to me, this is probably how he gets the girls to bed…not that he has to try hard.

  “No Jace and I can handle it myself if I need to. Move… I need to get back to work.” I say shoving past him, as I walk passed him he grabs me around my waist and brings me up against his chest as his arms wrap around my stomach.

  He whispers in my ear, “If any of these guys give you shit, find me babe and I’ll deal with them.” He kisses my cheek and let’s go. I don’t say anything and turn to walk away but he grabs my wrist and pulls me against him again.

  “Did you hear me Harley? Answer me…” he says through grated teeth.

  “Yes Jace, I heard you, can I go back to work now?” I don’t care how hot this boy is… he is really starting to piss me off.

  “Raven, let the girl go.” Hunter says coming up to Jace and smacking his back chuckling at Ravens behavior with me. I however, don’t find it funny at all.

  “What? She needs to know her place…” Jace says looking me over once again smirking suggestively.

  This stops me in my tracks as I turn back to look at him. “Know her place? Who the fuck do you think y
ou are?” I put my hand on my hip and glare at him with a raised brow, he shouldn’t have said that. Hunter drops his head back and lets out a deep chuckle that echoes over the loud music, Jace crosses his arms over his chest , tilts his head looking at me while tensing his jaw but doesn’t say a word. I know I’m about to make him angrier but I don’t really care.

  “You know what Jace? You can go fuck yourself!” I say loud enough for him and Hunter to hear but not loud enough so that everyone else in the pub overhears. Hunter continues to chuckle at Jace’s side but Jace has a cold expression on his face and he’s still clenching his jaw. I know he’s holding in whatever he wants to say to me now but I know later I will get it. I quickly walk away before he can catch me again.

  I stand behind the bar and take a deep breath trying to control the anger welling inside of me. I don’t like the way he spoke to me in front of Hunter, as if he owned me and I was just a pet he was training to be obedient.

  CHAPTER 11

  “The MC boys already have their eyes on you, I’d watch out for that Jace Hun, he’s a dangerous one, unstable too.” Jesse says as he comes up to me and hands me a glass of water.

  I take the glass and down it in one sip thinking about the unstable part of his sentence, “Yeah he thinks he owns me and its really pissing me off! I’ve never been in this situation before? I don’t know how to deal with all this… possessiveness.” I look back at Jesse, the way he portrays himself is so manly, you would never think he was into guys.

  “Sweetie, all these men are like that with their woman. However, I think he’s more possessive over you because of the innocence that radiates off you. Don’t get me wrong, you’re hot as hell dressed up like that but your innocence drives these wild men crazy. After all the dangerous and sinful things these men do? They all want a taste of something sweet and innocent, I tend to have possessive tendencies too and it’s in all of us men who were brought up around this lifestyle. Some know how to control it and some don’t. Jace may be fucking sex-on-legs but he just can’t control himself, be careful with that one.” He says giving me a hug.